Like Pacific Admittance Lyrics

How can I celebrate
You never committed to a date
You couldn't give to me, a chance to say
Welcome home enjoy your stay
Am I the advocate, don't tell me how it is
Sugar coat the way I've been; too far from direction

You're either right beside me or you are miles away
Forget about my expectations, you got your way
Welcome to admittance, you say you've been through this
But my head, it says different, you treat me like a vacation

You're gonna fit right in
Spent my time staring out the window of my hell
It's always fucking raining in my head
Am I supposed to take you by the hand?
We've tried that
Now you are using someone else's skin just to make me feel upset

All you are is a voice on the phone
Is my health not enough to bring you home?

You're either right beside me or you are miles away
Forget about my expectations, you got your way
Welcome to admittance, you say you've been through this
But my head, it says different, you treat me like a vacation

If you read this please don't come home to me
You're what I want and what I don't need
Someone who is not here physically
Will you sacrifice my missing piece?