Trash Boat Nothing New Lyrics

I can't lose myself in this embrace
I'm wide awake
Because the higher you climb
The further you fall
The harder you love
The faster it all comes crashing down
And I felt for all the things I hate about myself
So they will, so they will leave me as well

Why do I do this to myself in the first place?
Chasing smoke with something sweet just to hide the taste
Because the difference is nothing new
The only difference is what you do
I can't take it back
I can't take it all back

So I took my chances, no matter what the cost
I'm better now, I've loved and lost
We all look for answers while you found me
And I'm sorry
I hate to be shamelessly
Free of disguise

Why do I do this to myself in the first place?
Chasing smoke with something sweet just to hide the taste
Because the difference is nothing new
The only difference is what you do
I can't take it back

Just give me something to follow
I know is true
Give me something to hold
That I don't see right through
Give me something new
So I can fall in love with you
Give me something new