Issue No 136 Tango Decadence Lyrics

I've beat up my soul into fractions, hurts like hell
Can't say I'm proud of my actions, but here I am
But I don't blame anybody, else but me
Thought I could walk on the tightrope
But now I see

Kept falling down
Crawled on the ground
Used to ignore
But I can't do it no more

How come I choose to hurt you, just can't say
Dark thoughts and self corruption, has been eating its way
Always a lonely sensation, in my soul
Been digging and digging for years now
A deep dark hole

Kept digging me down
Down through the ground
Always the same
There's no one else to blame

Hope I'll one day find my way
Longing to make peace
Felt so lost, tired and lonely
I'm down here on my knees

But I'm not begging for mercy, from you or your friends
And I don't want anybody, to make amends
I'm taking the time that is needed, to sort things out
In search for the perfect solution
No more doubt

Hope I'll one day find my way
Longing to make peace
Felt so lost, tired and lonely
I'm down here on my knees

I know I'll one day find my way
I know I will find peace
No more lost, tired and lonely
No more begging please
No more begging please