Seeyouspacecowboy Late December Lyrics

I still remember that night sitting in silence hoping
But I already knew that you were gone
Confirmation stabbed in me cracking out until all parts of me
Collapsed and any semblance of hope turned to ash
I can't count how many times I thought of following you
Almost wishing each new wave of agony
Would finally push me to the end
I know you'll never hear those messages I left
But I still wish we could exchange words and laughs one more time
Or that I could even hear your voice, your breath responding to mine
There are so many things I wish I could say in that moment
Or the last time we spoke
When I was really the last voice that you heard on this earth
No one asked why we all saw the pain in your eyes
That you tried to hide with a smile‚ it was such a beautiful smile
We never‚ never believed in heaven
But I still hope you are in that house by the beach
No‚ no more pain in this life
You can rest now, (but I miss you)
They said you looked so peaceful
And I don't know if I wish I could have seen you like that
No struggle, no pain‚ you're unchained from this earth
But all I can picture in my mind is an angel in the rope
I'm so sorry that I couldn't help you
I wanted you to be free from the tangled thorns
I want to go back, back to a time when our hearts beat as one
In the end I can't accept that I'm still here and you are not