Hotel Books August Part Two Lyrics

I'm gonna chisel away at this rock
Until I get the shape that I want
And then I'm gonna continue to chisel it
Because that's what I do when I find myself in a new relationship

Because I remember when this started out as mud
Mixed with water that turned to clay
And I would watch it break and break
And look more like the image I wanted to make

And it's pathetic, I know
But it's all anyone ever gave
'Cause I was born a virgin
Covered in blood and free of sin
And that's the exact shape I wanna make
When I jump off this bridge

I'm tired of trying to be something that I can't be
And I'm tired of fighting for something that I can't see
I'm finding new life in every regret
And finding regrets in everything I forget
And the second I'm at peace, I'm thrown off by my need
To make everything complete
'Cause I'm a sucker for the Rule of Threes

You hurt me and I hurt you
But when I hurt you, something needed to happen
To give me some sort of closure
And I'm sorry for this poor posture
I just can't stand up straight and take this like a man today
I'm too broken

And there's so many things I wanna say
If only you would listen
And I'll put my fingers in the door, so when I close it on you
Maybe I'll hurt a little bit too
I'll put my fingers in the door, so when I close it on you
I'll hurt a little bit too
Because the only reason I held onto you
Was because I felt I had nothing left
And the deeper I carve into this rock
I realize it's not gonna fit into the shape that I want
So I quit

Because I've always been afraid to fall in love
Because there's something about falling
That just doesn't sound worth it
And I've said it before, and I'll say it again:
It was problematic at best
Because you beckoned me and you lessened me
And no other love would accommodate my blindfold so easily
But now I can see, now I can see

God, I gave you all of my love
But I can't see past this hurt
God, I gave you all of my love
So now what do I give to her?

God, I gave you all of my love
I just can't see past this hurt
God, I gave you all of my love
So what am I supposed to give to her?

God, I gave you all of my love
Yet I just can't see past this hurt
God, I gave you all of my love
So what am I supposed to give to her?

'Cause I'm terrified, I'm terrified
But I've never felt so alive
I'm terrified, I'm terrified
But I've never, I've never felt so alive
I've never felt so alive