Hold Close Blue Dream Lyrics

So complicated
I've been wasting all my time
Self medicated
As you drink away your pride

You said it's not my fault but I'm the one that lost it all
I thought we had this figured out
But now I [?]

You go and throw it away
How could I be so easily [?]

[Chorus]
I think I'll stick to myself for the first time
Walk with my hands at my side
Without you in my mind
Never call just to see if you're alright
I built a mountain
I can see from a new height
I can see from a new height

[?] running back to me
It's not the rain that helps me fall asleep
It's the place I built inside of a blue dream

I can't seem to find [?]
Separate the real and fake
[?] my selfish ways
Tremble my own mistakes

[Chorus]
I think I'll stick to myself for the first time
Walk with my hands at my side
Without you in my mind
Never call just to see if you're alright
I built a mountain
I can see from a new height
I can see from a new height

It's not the rain that helps me fall asleep
It's the place I built inside of a blue dream
You're holding on to things that I can't see
[?]

[Chorus]
Stick to myself for the first time
Walk with my hands at my side
Without you in my mind
Never call just to see if you're alright
I built a mountain
I can see from a new height
I can see from a new height