Dead To Me I Love My Problems Lyrics

Is this my existence now?
I've become jaded, I hesitated...every time I should have jumped right in
Its not too late, we'll begin today
I love my problems, so please don't solve them
They provide excuses, for being useless
I had a dream that everyone I knew was in my room
Staring at pictures of my past life
The one I spent dying to get out of my own head
I never succeeded
I know not what I want to be
But I'm taking notes on my enemies today and every day
I love my problems, so please don't solve them
They provide excuses, for being useless
I love my life but still I find a way
To fuck this up just when its gets so good
We run around until there is nothing left
Just empty shells of our fleeting youth and anyway
I'm not the same
I know not what I want to be
But I'm taking notes on my enemies today and every day
I love my problems, so please don't solve them
They provide excuses, for being useless
If only you could hear me, when I am thinking clearly
It's so loud, but I'm stuck and I'm repeating my mistakes
But at least I didn't break down again today like that day, it was so loud
I'm stuck and I'm repeating my mistakes